Steve's 2 Cents - Having Fun And Loving Life After A Year Of Loss

Things really do come in threes.

Danny passed in January
It was devastating. We pulled together as a family to support our daughter in law and grandson. In the process, we supported each other. We took our daughter in law and grandson to Hersey Park. It was a fun time. We had more fun fishing, rock hunting, and running around Casa Bonito.

My stepmom, Inez passed in May
This was different. I had a good relationship with her. Even more so after my dad passed. But she was frail and had dementia. Cleaning out the house was a fun stroll down memory lane with many of the pictures from my early years black and white. I sure looked a dufus, but with early onset of that twinkle in my eyes best known as “Hold my Beer!”

My publisher decided to close his business in July
I knew before Shadow Sanction published in August. It was going to be my last novel with Force Poseidon. I wish him well. He’s working on his second book. The event is not nearly as impactful as the first two losses, but it’s another change from the status quo. Luckily, I have embraced change since I can remember. I see it as a challenge, a time for growth.

On the personal side, Elle and I cruised to Central America and recently returned from a great work/vacation that started in San Diego, went through Napa to Lake Shasta, then back to San Francisco.

Elle has continued to teach cooking and I’ve completed Shadow Tier 3 (at the editor) and a Lance Bear Wolf origin story novella. I’m also querying a new series – working title – Code Name Snowman that you will hear more about in 2024.

We remain a strong family, okay - strange but strong. Much like the teams I was privileged to serve on in the Army, we are more than the sum of our parts. We choose to live life and love. There is no retreat, only forward.

To all that read this. I hope you had a Happy New Year and that 2024 holds great things for you.

About Steve: He Was The Best Of Us

On Jan 9th it will have been a year that we’ve not had Danny with us. His infectious laughter. His genuine caring for other people and his friends. But most importantly, his family.

But we go on. Sometimes in laughter. Sometimes in pain. We grind. And occasionally, we find lightness and grace.

We talk about him in the first person as if he is still here. I think we are all scared to lose him a second time from our memories.

We celebrate our grandson and daughter in law. Before, I was happy to be Grandpa Steve. To be Danny’s backup when he had to work.

Now I support our daughter-in-law. She is amazing.

But our grandson is lacking a good male model of how to be a man in the world.

During our trip to California, I had time to reflect on my goals for 2024 and beyond. I’d planned to race on a national level. Elle and I had planned to travel a lot. When not doing either of those, I’d planned to write, a lot.

But I’ve come to realize I can no longer afford to be self-centered if I expect my grandson to grow up and be the kind of man Danny was. The kind of man I aspire to be.

We joke in the military that no plan survives first contact. In this case, my plans slammed into the dual realities of taking care of my family and investing in our family’s future.

We’ll start the year with a short trip out of the country to let him experience a new people and culture. Then I’ll focus on what we can do here in Colorado and nearby Utah.

I’m on a mission and it’s one that makes me feel good. I know Danny appreciates it. I can feel his approval.

2024 La Familia

Steve's 2 Cents - Biden’s Fentanyl Deal with China – Cue Aerosmith’s Dream On…

During President Biden’s meeting with Chinese leader Xi, Xi agreed to curb the fentanyl trade.

As former CIA operative Andrew Bustamante pointed out, Xi came just shy of admitting to weaponizing the fentanyl trade.

But we’ve heard this get tuff talk before when then President Trump got Xi to commit to a crackdown to include the execution of exporters. The net result was the continuing growth of deaths due to the drug during his term in office.

As I explore in the Shadow Tier series, everyone from Wolf, Parker, and Kennedy to the President of the United States knows we can disrupt precursors and drug routes. We can take billions of dollars of drugs out of circulation, and it does nothing to stem the real issue – the American public’s demand.

From what I can find it appears that President Biden wants to make some minor adjustments to policy and help users with testing kits.

Former President Trump takes a more aggressive stance. Secure the border. Impose a total Naval embargo on cartels. Order DOD to inflict max damage on cartel leadership and operations. Designate cartels as foreign terrorist organizations. Choke off their access to the global financial system. Get cooperation with neighboring governments (read Mexico) to dismantle cartels. And ask congress to ensure drug smugglers and traffickers can get the death penalty.

What do you think it will take to start making a difference?

Additional reading from the NY Post
Federal data from 2019 indicate about 80% of offenders whose crimes involved synthetic opioids that year were busted for smuggling fentanyl rather than closely related substances.

CDC data on drug overdose deaths does not say whether fentanyl, a related compound, or both were detected, or if not enough information was available.

Preliminary data show that about 76,000 Americans died of synthetic opioids in 2022 — an all-time record up from about 72,000 in 2021 and 58,000 in 2020.

The CDC projects that monthly deaths from synthetic opioids continued to hit new monthly highs in the first half of 2023.

Xi’s commitment to halt exports has been met with skepticism — in part because former President Donald Trump boasted that he had convinced the Chinese leader to impose a severe crackdown including the execution of exporters, only for overdose deaths to continue to rise during his presidency.

National Security Council spokesman John Kirby said at a briefing Monday that “[Xi] has said he was going to be personally responsible for stemming the flow of these chemicals out of China, and we’re grateful for that.”

“That’s going to take a little bit of time as he goes back to Beijing and puts those processes in place — those law enforcement actions,” Kirby added.

Biden also urged Congress to approve $1.2 billion for fentanyl-screening equipment as part of a larger funding request in which he is seeking $14.3 billion to finance Israel’s war with Hamas and $61.4 billion to back Ukraine in its war with Russia.

About Steve: The Green Beret Mentality

How did you learn to grind through the suck and never give up? I want a Green Beret mentality.

Great question!

My personal path is founded on Gratitude, Grit, Persistence, and the willingness to Grind.

Gratitude - I take time to be grateful in times of good and when in the suck. It’s my choice to challenge myself in this life and that often includes grinding and pushing myself.

Grit & Persistence - I’ve never been a prodigy at anything, okay maybe napping. So, I need to do whatever I’m learning a lot to become average and a lot more to get where I want to be.

Grind - The grind/suck is a time of deep learning for me. What I'm made of and who I really am. Of course. I like to apply my MacGyver-ness along the way to see if I can improve the situation or at the very least, my perspective of the situation.

I seek to learn myself and new wisdom that I can integrate. To some I seem to have a Sun Tzu/Samurai outlook. To others a, “may the force be with you” goofiness, but I find my personal strength there.

I will never stop holding myself to a high standard. Not to be the very best at something but the best I can be. The only person I judge myself against is me from yesterday.

YOU CAN DO THE SAME.

YOU CAN ACCEPT THE GRIND/SUCK.

KNOW IT’S UP TO YOU TO SEE IT THROUGH.

AND ENJOY WHAT'S ON THE OTHER SIDE.

Develop grit, persistence, and a never give up attitude.

With these traits you will get farther than raw talent and can achieve anything you put your heart and mind to.

Be grateful for what you have. Be grateful for the choices you’ve been able to make, and the ones you’ll make to shape your future.

Where do you find your strength?

A New Endeavor: SilverBack Publishing

I am excited to announce that I am a Partner in SilverBack Publishing.

The firm will enable authors to share their untold stories that did not fit into their books or never developed into a full novel.

SilverBack Publishing will focus on publishing novellas and will offer readers unprecedented influence and interaction with authors throughout the publication process.

The first novella, Chicago '63 by Terrence McCauley, an award-winning and #1 bestselling author, will be published early next year.

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Steve's 2 Cents - Sinaloa Cartel Stops Sales Of Fentanyl

Banners purportedly from Mexico’s Sinaloa cartel say the gang has sworn off sales of fentanyl.

From AP: MEXICO CITY (AP) — Banners appeared Monday in northern Mexico purportedly signed by a faction of Mexico’s Sinaloa cartel claiming that the gang has sworn off the sale and production of the synthetic opioid fentanyl.

But experts quickly cast doubt on the veracity of the claim, saying that fentanyl — which has caused tens of thousands of overdose deaths in the United States — remains one of the cartel’s biggest money makers.

Prosecutors in Sinaloa confirmed that the banners appeared on overpasses and near roadways but could not say whether they were authentic or who had hung them up.

The machine-printed banners purportedly signed by the sons of imprisoned drug lord Joaquin “El Chapo” Guzman claim they have prohibited the sale or production of fentanyl in the northern state of Sinaloa. The sons are known as “the Chapitos” after their famous father.

Read the full article.


I agree with Mike Vigil, former head of international operations for the Drug Enforcement Administration. He said there is concrete evidence that “Sinaloa is the biggest producer of fentanyl in Mexico” and that there has been no sign the cartel is moving away from it.

As the article says later, in fact the Sinaloa cartel is moving away from plant-based products to synthetic drugs as they can be manufactured year-round and at much lower cost (following a big pharma model).

The primary issue from my POV, is the demand signal the cartels get from their American consumer. When cocaine and “standard heroin” are not enough…The cartels take advantage.

Concerning the demand signal, when was the last time you saw or heard of a don’t use drugs campaign? DARE? Drug Abuse Resistance Education. It started in 1983 and it’s still around but I had to look it up.

Now we try and make sure the user is safe. Needle exchanges, safe use houses, free Narcan, Fentanyl tests….

It looks like we’ve given up on helping people move past the need to use.

What would you suggest, to reduce the demand for illicit drugs in America?

About Steve: A Lance Bear Wolf Prequel (Novella)

I’ll keep this short so I can get back to writing.

I’ve been thinking about this for a while now. During Shadow Tier, I created a Lance Bear Wolf character profile and a veneer of back story to support the Wolf you met there. In Shadow Sanction you meet more of Wolf and his surviving family on the reservation. But his tribal identity is taken, which begs another story, for another time.

Currently, the prequel starts when Wolf is a young teenager, and he experiences a life-changing event. It will take us from there to ST-1 and lay a foundation of who Wolf is, his motivations, dreams, and goals.

Stay tuned for insights and leaks from the prequel.

And possibly a contest that has you in the prequel or Shadow Tier – 3.

Thanks for your continued support.

Steve

Steve's 2 Cents - The Cybersecurity Market Needs You!

Old software continues to be a problem. You’ve probably heard that keeping your software up to date (software hygiene) is a core software security practice.

The cybersecurity market needs you, if you are looking at a career change or just left the military, they need you!

When I call someone a cyber security practitioner, I mean it. You never arrive in the cyber security world, you may be ahead for a minute, but the bad guys are working to leap ahead and do, all the time.

If you like being in the fight, yes, it’s predominantly digital. And I mean all the time, it’s a great career with many options for new entrants to the workforce and older one’s alike.

There are many options for paid training, government assisted training, and of course, classes at your local community colleges and universities.

Massive Talent Shortage 

  • 3.4 million world wide

  • 750,000 in the US

  • A 35% increase over last year

This is from a SANS blog by Lance Spitzner

Many people think cybersecurity is all about hacking into or breaking things, but cybersecurity is really learning about and helping protect how both technology and people work. The key to your success is not a technical background, but your willingness and desire to learn how technology works and to never stop playing. In addition, there are a growing number of fields in cybersecurity that do not focus on solving technical problems, but instead on human problems. These require softer skills, such as policy development, security awareness, and training, governance, security communications, privacy or cyber law, and ethics.

See the following for what keeps people in the cyber security space busy. I’ve shortened the list considerably. This is just some of what Cyber Security practitioners deal with.

The following cybersecurity agencies coauthored this joint Cybersecurity Advisory (CSA): United States: The Cybersecurity and Infrastructure Security Agency (CISA), National Security Agency (NSA), and Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI)

  • Australia: Australian Signals Directorate’s Australian Cyber Security Centre (ACSC)

  • Canada: Canadian Centre for Cyber Security (CCCS)

  • New Zealand: New Zealand National Cyber Security Centre (NCSC-NZ) and Computer Emergency Response Team New Zealand (CERT NZ)

  • United Kingdom: National Cyber Security Centre (NCSC-UK)

This advisory provides details on the Common Vulnerabilities and Exposures (CVEs) routinely and frequently exploited by malicious cyber actors in 2022 and the associated Common Weakness Enumeration(s) (CWE). In 2022, malicious cyber actors exploited older software vulnerabilities more frequently than recently disclosed vulnerabilities and targeted unpatched, internet-facing systems.

  • CVE-2018-13379. This vulnerability, affecting Fortinet SSL VPNs, was also routinely exploited in 2020 and 2021. The continued exploitation indicates that many organizations failed to patch software in a timely manner and remain vulnerable to malicious cyber actors.

  • CVE-2021-34473CVE-2021-31207CVE-2021-34523. These vulnerabilities, known as ProxyShell, affect Microsoft Exchange email servers. In combination, successful exploitation enables a remote actor to execute arbitrary code. These vulnerabilities reside within the Microsoft Client Access Service (CAS), which typically runs on port 443 in Microsoft Internet Information Services (IIS) (e.g., Microsoft’s web server). CAS is commonly exposed to the internet to enable users to access their email via mobile devices and web browsers.

  • CVE-2021-40539. This vulnerability enables unauthenticated remote code execution (RCE) in Zoho ManageEngine ADSelfService Plus and was linked to the usage of an outdated third-party dependency. Initial exploitation of this vulnerability began in late 2021 and continued throughout 2022.

  • CVE-2021-26084. This vulnerability, affecting Atlassian Confluence Server and Data Center (a web-based collaboration tool used by governments and private companies) could enable an unauthenticated cyber actor to execute arbitrary code on vulnerable systems. This vulnerability quickly became one of the most routinely exploited vulnerabilities after a PoC was released within a week of its disclosure. Attempted mass exploitation of this vulnerability was observed in September 2021.

  • CVE-2021- 44228. This vulnerability, known as Log4Shell, affects Apache’s Log4j library, an open-source logging framework incorporated into thousands of products worldwide. An actor can exploit this vulnerability by submitting a specially crafted request to a vulnerable system, causing the execution of arbitrary code. The request allows a cyber actor to take full control of a system. The actor can then steal information, launch ransomware, or conduct other malicious activity.[1] Malicious cyber actors began exploiting the vulnerability after it was publicly disclosed in December 2021, and continued to show high interest in CVE-2021- 44228 through the first half of 2022.

About Steve: A Fun Ride

49 years ago, I was the new guy at the radio section of White House Communications Agency. From a sleepy town in northern California where I spent most of my time outdoors fishing, hunting, and riding my dirt bike to Washington DC and in particular the Georgetown section along the Potomac.

I had no idea how turbulent the waters were that I’d jumped into, but with the help of senior NCOs and a crusty warrant officer or two I learned quickly. My introduction to working at and around the White House included several areas that were off limits due to ongoing investigations.

I applied my father’s advice to make friends with the people ensuring I got paid, the White House kitchen staff and a few others from three letter agencies that supported the president. I was 20 years old, with a Top Secret clearance, I knew nothing, and wandered around wide eyed most of the time soaking up everything I could.

It was the start of a fun ride that continues today.

Steve's 2 Cents - Cleaning Out My Parent’s House

Elle and I spent the last week traveling to Apple Valley California to clean out my parent’s house and get it ready for sale. The travel was fun and easy as we broke up the 14 hours of driving with a stop in Las Vegas on the way there.

The house is in a Sun City retirement community and the guard/gate process was completely different, but we worked through. Getting into the house I was surprised at the smile that crossed my face. My Dad and I had strained relationship (I thought he was a jerk. It’s the nicest words I can think of right now) until I decided to change the dynamic in my fifties.

I’m glad I did. He passed in 2014 and it was my step-mom who passed in May. When she had gone into a long term care facility four years ago we did some downsizing so this time was not, thankfully, like starting from scratch.

Still, it’s amazing what we can acquire and keep over a lifetime. One funny example is the manual from a 70’s radar range (microwave). The garage was coffee cans of nuts and bolts, boxes with five screws, and parts of tap and die sets. Lots of old sprinkler parts and weeping tubes. Everything we did not want and thought that someone like Goodwill would not take went into construction heavy trash bags that we loaded into the garage.

One morning when it was only 87 out, I took my battery powered sawzall outback and was going to cut up plastic deck furniture when a neighbor heard the sound and stopped me saying they would take as their neighbor had none. Turns out it hopped two fences in the exchange and went to a Vietnam vet. I couldn’t have been happier as I went back to work inside, in the AC.

We spent one whole day driving down the hill to San Bernardino to deal with the State of California. Death certificates are printed on a “heavy stock paper” that is required by the banks. I got an extra copy of my dad’s and we found out that Mom’s had not reached the county records facility. Evidently, in this age of real time speed of light digital systems it would take 45-60 days for it to get to them. The helpful lady told us to go to the health department.

Only Four miles away, Google maps tried to get me to enter a parking lot through the out exit. Good thing I stopped short, the spikes were facing my way. After a short drive down the sidewalk I started to enter the lot but it had a bar and it said restricted. Turns out Google wanted me to park in the employee parking lot. So, after getting turned around… I went around the block and parked in an appropriate place and entered a small building where we were able to get a copy of her death certificate.

Expecting an APB for a nutcase driving on the sidewalk we packed up and headed back up the hill to Apple Valley.

Another day was spent trying to get an appointment at the bank. The days of walking in and getting help seem to be gone, at least at the bank my parents used. Death certificates, EIN numbers and more are needed to close out accounts that I have to be added to, etc.

Tired and worn out from sleeping on the floor, Elle and I headed home where we are now waiting to see when we can get back into the bank to close accounts. The house is getting paint and new carpet. Our agent is excellent. There are steps to go but I’m happy that my parents set up their passing to make it as easy as possible on us. I knew my Dad was smart, I just never knew he gave a damn. Thanks Dad!

About Steve: What Does This Ski Lift Ticket Have To Do With Shadow Sanction?

What does this ski lift ticket have to do with Shadow Sanction?

My first time in Tehran, Iran was late in 1977. Life was good. Tehran was a fun city, full of life and filled with people interested in how Americans lived day to day. I remember them as especially interested in our capacity to do whatever we wanted and become whatever we desired.

BY 1979, the Shah, Mohammad Reza Pahlavi, known as Mohammad Reza Shah, or the Shah had worked to transform Iran into a middle eastern powerhouse. The national income had risen 432 times over its level in 1963 when he introduced his White Revolution. Anger at his changes came from the outside when he nationalized Iran’s natural resources and began industrialization with the building of cars, appliances, and other goods.

During the Shah’s reign he spent billions on his military, at one point, making it the fifth largest in the world. One memory from my first visit to Tehran was the four-brand-new Boeing 747’s line up on the military side of the runway.

Nearby were eight Soviet fighter jets parked in a circle nose to nose. The military attaché later told me it was the Shah’s way of showing displeasure with the Russians. Another image is that of a soccer field filled from end to end with Bell helicopters still covered in shipping material with blades folded back.

So, we normally traveled in pairs, were met by a State Department liaison and then handed off to a pair of big burley guys who were our drivers. We loaded the eight boxes and three Haliburton cases of communications and other gear into a van, then we were directed to a sedan. The driver unbuttoned his coat before getting in and I see his Browning High Power and badge (lion holding a sword) – he’s SAVAK – Iran National Intelligence and Security Organization.

I’d expected State or Military Attaché support so being handed off the Iran version of the CIA was eye opening. We were in Tehran to support the Secret Service advance team who was preparing for a visit from Vice President Mondale. It took us two days to set up our gear and test the quality of the communications all with our SAVAK minder in tow.

Then it was Friday night and my introduction to the ABC club. An acronym for darts, drinking, and some great food with American, British, and Canadian staff from their respective embassies. I was assaulted the next hazy morning in my Inter- Continental room by a Marine and communicator who worked for the other team in the embassy.

“Get up, we’re going skiing.”

“You got a flight to the alps?”

“No, stupid. We’re going to Shemshak.”

Dumped on the floor and wondering how they’d entered my locked room I said, “Give me five.”

Exiting the shower, I was pointed to a pot of exquisite dark coffee and saw my teammate talking to the guys.

“He skied with President Ford and his son Jack in the back bowls at Vail. You’ll have a hard time keeping up with him.”

I’d been set up.

I was a blue intermediate skier at best. Black diamond runs were a crash in the making. I was surprised that my SAVAK minder wasn’t around. The Marine told me not to worry so I jumped in the car and we headed out. So, I cleared the air on the ride to Shemshak, a ski resort situated to the north-east of Tehran in the Alborz mountain range. I remember the equipment as old but usable and the slopes within my less than graceful method of skiing. The sky was dark blue and the temperature on the warm side which made for some heavy wet snow.

After several runs my dehydrated self-needed some water and food so I stopped at a little stand for a water and pastry. I found a seat and was taking a long pull on the water when a young man my age came over and sat next to me.

“You’re an American, would you mind if I practice my English?”

“Is it that obvious? And no, I don’t mind,” I said, my counterintelligence briefings popping warning signals.

The conversation was mostly about two things. Skiing and Skydiving. Both things we shared in common. When the talk got around to his asking what I did for living and why I was in Iran I said I was with a global telecom company looking at possible investments in Iran.

He was more forthright and explained he was a lieutenant with the famed NOHED Brigade. Iran’s most elite special forces unit. His first name was Kamran. It was a great conversation where I learned a lot about the people of Iran and what they looked forward to. We kept in touch, after I cleared it with my leadership and a few other interested parties. I saw him again in the US in 1979 and sold him a skydiving rig and altimeter. That was the last time I saw him and communication with him ceased after the revolution.

I often wondered what happened to him. Did he have to flee or did he thrive. When I started writing Shadow Sanction 44 years later, I was researching the movement of opium out of Afghanistan through Iran and remembered him.

Kamran became General Kamran Ahmad and Lance Bear Wolf became his friend in the west.

And that is what a ski lift ticket means to Shadow Sanction.

Steve's 2 Cents - War With The Cartels Is More Complicated Than It Sounds

This short but timely article on why “War on the Cartels” through military intervention into Mexico is not a sound idea. I agree with most of this article, in that over the last 50 years we have invested enormous sums of money into fighting the supply side of the cartels. The results have been limited and not affected the demand or ability of the cartels to supply the demand. I also agree that a strategy of working through and with the Mexican military is a better approach. But even that approach will have limited success when some of the 80% profits of the drug trade are used to pay off judges, police officers and politicians.

In Shadow Sanction - Wolf speaks to winning battles but not the war. It’s 2003 in the book and Afghanistan has been left for the war in Iraq. The military is focused on counterterrorism and the State Department and DEA are just beginning to develop their programs. Once again, it’s a supply side fight, until Wolf and Kennedy decide to dismantle a new French Connection and it’s Union Corsa mafia underpinnings. The story of Shadow Sanction is transnational, taking place in the US, Germany, France, Iran, and Afghanistan. Do Wolf and Shadow Tier win? Read it and let me know your thoughts.

“War with the Cartels Is More Complicated Than It Sounds”
Small Wars Journal
Michael L. Burgoyne and Albert J. Marckwardt
Read the article

About Steve: Fear

Fear - noun

ˈfir 

Synonyms of fear

  • an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger

  • an instance of this emotion

  • a state marked by this emotion

  • reason for alarm: DANGER

Fear - verb

  • feared; fearing; fears

  • Fear - transitive verb

  • to be afraid of: expect with alarm

  • fear the worst

Fear - intransitive verb

  • to be afraid or apprehensive

  • feared for their lives

  • feared to go out at night

  • fearer noun

Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way…Here are the two fears that kept me from living my best life. It took years of life experience and professional help to overcome them and live my best life.

Fear of failure – my father had this interesting idea that if he showed me how to do something once, I would immediately get it. Like woodwork and motorcycle maintenance when I was six. Being told I was stupid influenced me and I stayed away from him as much as possible well up into my fifties. The result was as a young kid/teenager I did a lot of things for the first time through trial and error. Mostly error but somehow, I survived.

Fear of failure taken to the extreme, which I did often, meant I would invest myself fully in the activity to the detriment of relationships with my brother and sisters, friends, and co-workers. It also had the interesting effect of pushing me to seek out physically dangerous sports and activities so I could demonstrate my fearlessness.

Fear of not being good enough – If I cared about something, I wished it had been English classes, I would agonize over being good enough. I had a sense I was not the smartest nor the most physically adept but that did not keep me from setting self-expectations that I could compete at a high level in whatever I chose to do. One day in high school, I think late in my junior year, I decided that I would show my father I was good enough by focusing on my classes and make the honor roll.

But I ignored the emotional side of not being good enough, which meant that after an award, accolade, or promotion I would get right back at it as if it hadn’t happened. I was one of those people that was stuck in a revolving door of proof that I was doing things right that would get overwritten with my father’s message I was stupid and a screw up. Spending time with a therapist helped me see changing the message was an inside job and that it was up to me to make the change.

Once I decided to like myself, what I had done, and who I’d become, the fear of not being good enough lost its sway over me. I can now say that I enjoy the daily challenge of being a better writer than I was yesterday. It also goes for everything else in my life. I want to be better than I was yesterday but I don’t fear being good enough because I’ll never be done learning, improving, moving forward.

One final note on fear. I have more fear of rock climbing than I do leaving airplanes at ten or twenty thousand feet above the ground. Some people say its depth perception that makes the difference or that I have more experience leaving a perfectly good airplane. I think it’s a little of both.

Do you have a subject (like writing) or sport that you engage in even though you experience fear?

Steve's 2 Cents - Is The Military A Good Job Option?

The simple answer is it depends. Do you have a plan? Are you going to college? Are you in your twenties or early thirties and looking for work or to make a career change? Or, like I was, are you ready for a break? Do you want to see the world or learn a trade and get paid while doing it? It doesn’t need to be a 10-year or 5-year plan. But give it some thought, create a plan, then write it down.

My plan included the following:

  • See the world.

  • Work from somewhere in the Pacific Northwest (preferably Washington state).

  • Do something that includes radios and weapons.

  • And gives me time for hunting and fishing.

  • End goal - $$ for college/trade school.

Your plan could be:

  • Learn diesel mechanics.

  • Get stationed in Kansas.

  • $$ for trade school.

Or your plan could be:

  • Aircraft/Helicopter related.

  • Ship/Submarine related.

  • Tanks!

Whatever it is, your best chance to land a job you are interested in is to have a plan.

Otherwise, you will be subject to your entrance test scores and the needs of the service you choose.

Back to the plan. So, you have an idea of what you want, now is the time to get online and see which service offers that job/area of specialization.

If it’s to do with aviation, you are in luck. All the services have aviation components. Drilling down into the sub-components will help identify the differences between engine and airframe mechanics, etc.

If it’s intelligence, you are in luck. All the services have it and need it… Drilling down will show you the jobs. Analyst, Counterintelligence, etc.

In the case of Submarines, it’s what you are assigned to versus a job. Many of the jobs that are on a submarine are also on a destroyer, cruiser, or aircraft carrier.

Once you’ve identified the job or jobs you would like it’s time to give thought to the service.

I looked at the Navy and determined it had the best training but me and rough water didn’t go together at the time. So, I dropped the Navy and looked at the Army and Air Force. After further review I found the Air Force, at the time, was not steeped in the outdoors/hunter culture I was looking for.

So, I went to the Army recruiter and told them what I wanted to do. Of course, they tried to talk me into other jobs, billets they needed to fill but I held firm. Then they sent me to the military entrance processing station (MEPS) and I scored well on the test and in particular for the radio training I wanted.

When I got back and the recruiters saw my scores, they tried again to get me to take other jobs, but I said no and was ready to walk away or come back when the position I wanted was open.

I held my ground and got what I wanted. It all changed at basic training, but that’s another story.

Note: One thing I did not consider was the National Guard. The Army and Air Force Guard units across the states have almost all the same jobs as active duty. As do the Navy and Marine reserves.

The benefit of joining the National Guard is that after training you come home. Often with state benefits that pay for your four-year degree. Your duty is part-time with a couple of weeks for annual training during the year. If you want more, there are full-time positions available and slots supporting the active services.

So, you can probably tell I am pro military service if you work it like any other job/career hunt.

One of the stories I like to tell is of a young man that wanted to get into Federal law enforcement. He entered the Coast Guard in an intelligence slot, went to school at night and got his degree. He was given a commission and started working alongside CBP and DEA. After his service commitment was fulfilled, he was recruited by CBP, INS, FBI, and the DEA. He now works at DEA doing…sorry. If I told you, I’d have to….

Computer Hardware Engineer
Computer hardware engineers are responsible for researching, designing, developing, or testing computers for commercial, military, industrial, or scientific uses. People in this field would need to keep up with rapid advances in computer technology and know how to build, test, and modify product prototypes. 

This job is very similar in both a military service setting and a civilian setting, making former service members who work in computer engineering highly employable in the civilian workforce.

Systems Analyst
This military career takes on the role of analyzing and helping rethink computer needs to enhance processes, thus increasing organizational efficiency and overall effectiveness. This role is great for someone who is a natural problem solver. Beyond problem-solving, a systems analyst will also continuously improve existing computer systems and improve workflow. 

A military systems analyst would find a seamless transition into filling this role in the civilian world. Systems analysts are vital components of companies in a variety of industries such as engineering, healthcare, manufacturing, and tech.

Army Technical Engineer
Army technical engineers are responsible for supervising and executing construction site development. People in this role will conduct technical investigations, surveys, and drafts using digital equipment and software to prepare construction project plans. 

Some common skills for people in this role include an ability to convert ideas into drawings, an interest in maps and charts, and an interest in subjects such as algebra, geometry, and trigonometry. 

Technical engineers have a place in almost any industry. Depending on what you choose, you could be involved in setting up or building equipment, conducting experiments, or helping design and develop new products.

IT Consultant
Working as an IT consultant in the military would be a great stepping stone to working in information technology back in the real world. IT consultants help evaluate business’s or organization’s IT systems to help them meet their unique objectives. They’ll help clients reach their business goals through an optimized IT infrastructure, helping design and implement technology solutions. 

IT consultants are in high demand in the civilian workforce, and veterans would likely find an easy transition from military to civilian life in this role.

Network Engineer
Network engineers are useful in several industries. Their primary role is to maintain connectivity of networks to ensure seamless data and wireless systems. Maintaining a strong network infrastructure is a key part of a network engineers’ daily life, along with improving security and performance over time. 

Filling this role as a service member is a great stepping stone to finding a career in network engineering in the civilian workforce.

Computer Information Systems Manager
This role, also referred to as IT manager, is responsible for analyzing their organization’s computer needs and recommending areas for improvement. IT managers will continuously maintain and install computer hardware and software for their organization. Skills for this role include a strong attention to detail, great communication skills, and an interest in computer science.

IT managers are vital for virtually any company in the real world. Any organization with an online presence needs IT help, and your experience in the military is a great background for finding job search success in this field in civilian life. 

Computer Network Architect
Similar to a network engineer, a network architect is responsible for managing data communication networks. Network architects take this a step further, working beyond the confines of a singular business or organization. A network architect might work with local area networks, or multinational or globally integrated communications systems.

Similar to many information technology roles, network architects will have their pick of jobs in civilian life, whether it’s working for a large tech company or a growing healthcare organization.

Software Application Developer
As military personnel, software developers will create programs that are applicable to functions of the army, whether that’s designing applications to organize and display intelligence data or helping streamline mission planning. Strong organizational and management skills and an ability to understand and apply math concepts are vital skills for software developers.

In the real world, software developers can find success in a number of different industries. Tech companies are the most common industry for software developers, and the career field is growing each year.

Cybersecurity Analyst
Cybersecurity remains a concern for all industries. Working as a cybersecurity analyst in the military will leave you highly trained to detect abnormalities and fight cybercrime efficiently and effectively. People working in this field must have strong attention to detail and be able to quickly respond to stressful situations.

Cybersecurity careers are vital for many civilian employers in various industries from healthcare to finance and manufacturing. Your career transition will be seamless, as many responsibilities overlap between the private and public sector.

Project Management
Working in project management requires planning, initiation, and execution of a project. Project management is a crucial part of military functions, no matter whether you’re working in the Coast Guard or Marine Corps. Recruiters will look for a strong ability to lead, ability to manage different groups of people, and resolve conflicts. Creative and resourceful problem-solving skills are a must, as is great communication. 

Project management is a role that many companies have, from tech to manufacturing and engineering. Working in project management in the military will put you in a great position to take your skills into the real world and seek out job opportunities.

About Steve: My Passion For Food

I love food. When I was a kid, I was the one with hollow legs that ate everything in sight. We were a meat and potatoes family that had fresh onion at every meal, thanks Dad! My parents saved money by buying our milk in bulk, boxes of powdered milk, so good warm… And there was the government supplied cheese. Sounds funky but we had food on the table unlike my wife.

I knew how to cook breakfast at six and by eight I was cooking steaks, when my parents weren’t around. My salads were healthy but basic. My brother and sisters loved my pizza bread, not really but it filled us up. Salmon and Halibut were the two fish at our house and common during their seasons.

I remember eating at an asian restaurant once. The prawns looked so big. 99% of the time we ate at my moms’ sisters houses and there my palette expanded, a little. But my food experience didn’t really take off until I joined the Army and moved east. California to Oklahoma, then to Georgia.

Getting off base during advanced training was a weekend thing and I remember the tons of BBQ I ate in Lawton outside Ft Sill. I have no idea if it was good, but I know it was good enough compared to Army chow. When I got to Ft. Gordon I fell in love with southern cooking. Regional delights like Krystal burgers, just kidding. Collards, beans, and ham – serious comfort food.

As you can tell, I was not branching out too far from pot roast and meatloaf.

When I got to DC everything changed in a second. I found Greek lemon soup, moussaka, kababs and gyros. Then there were the blue crabs and steamed spiced shrimp covered in this magic dust called Old Bay! Life was good and so were the pizza slices, for DC.

My first trip out of the US was a three-legged affair. The first stop was Paris. The sights, sounds and beautiful young women…mind blown! I didn’t know super thin pancakes could taste so good. I’m surprised my body didn’t go into shock over all the pastries I ate. I’d never had fish so smooth and buttery, the Sole Meunière melted in my mouth. I didn’t want to leave.

The next stop was New Delhi. A place I only know of because of my aunt and uncle’s National Geographic subscription. The tandoori mains, paneer sides, naan and yogurt sauces. I took part in my first formal dinner at General somebody’s house. With people handing me food from over my shoulder. The table was set with more silverware in front of me than I owned. Seven courses, might have been more. I was terrified. 

As no fighter pilot ever likes to say, I was in full defensive mode. I kept my hands on my thighs until I saw someone else pick up a spoon or fork - monkey see, monkey do. The food was amazing and most importantly I enjoyed myself.

The last stop on the trip was Dacca Bangladesh. I quickly saw what a poor country it was when compared to France and India. I don’t remember there being a lot of choices other than the restaurant in the Intercontinental. I ate dinner at the house of a State Department communicator. Unfortunately, I can’t recall any real difference between dinner in India and Bangladesh. I did have a nice dinner in the hotel with a lovely young woman who was whisked away by her mother at the end of the meal.

What made the meal very memorable was what happened the next day. In a first for me, I found that I could maintain my communications link even while hallucinating through serious cramps. The consulate nurse had what I needed, and my issue disappeared before the end of the mission and the long series of flights back home.

Sickness aside, it was an amazing experience that whetted my appetite for international food. DC and the surrounding suburbs turned into a “I’ve not tried that before,” kaleidoscope of opportunity.

Do you have a favorite food/cuisine???

Best Steve

Steve's 2 Cents - Are You Ready?

While working as a Technical Security Specialist in the Secret Service I was taught to identify risks, both physical and electronic – pre digital. Later as I transitioned into cyber security, I added the digital realm to the list but quickly realized the process is the same.

Life is full of risks and the threat, read probability, of them happening.

There are risks to our person, to our family, and to our communities. But how do you reduce the large set of might occur risks to a manageable few that are likely to occur (threats) and then make a plan to deal with them (our vulnerabilities).

Here is an example.

Physical and weather-related risk - Elle and I live in a condo building on the 4th floor in Colorado. There are no rivers or large bodies of water that might overflow. We are certainly not near the ocean. So, I’m not concerned with water-based risks. We are in a concrete and block building, so I’m also not worried about rapidly spreading fire. What I do think about is power outage.

Threat - I assess the likelihood of a sustained (more than two day long) power outage as a high probability threat that we are vulnerable to. We own the condo, but not the building. No electricity means no water, no refrigerator, no cooking, no sanitation.

Vulnerability – Lack of water, hot food, and sanitation

Response/Plan - In our case, if there is an extended power outage, I don’t need to prep. We will make use of backpacking and hunting equipment. I will use my portable generator on the porch and backpacking water filters and stoves to have water and cook meals. What would you do?

So, what is the list of risks to you and your family? Write them down then analyze them to determine those that are high probably, they are the threats to deal with first. Then medium threats and lastly low. Consider adding them to your lists if the result could be catastrophic. 

The next step is to mitigate your vulnerability to those threats. If the threat is hurricanes, it could be a pre-set plan to leave your beachfront house to stay with a friend or family inland. Or if it’s fire, buying a couple fire extinguishers and teaching the family how to use them along with an accountability and exit plan.

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There are other risks in your life beyond my examples of physical and weather. These include elements of your health, work, finances, digital confidentiality, and legal. 

Here is an example of a checklist to help you organize your thoughts on being ready. https://dhsem.colorado.gov/info-center/readycolorado/be-prepared

What are some of the threats you’ve had to deal with and what was your response?

Best Steve

About Steve: The 16-Year Degree

I graduated from Arcata High School in June of 1972. I wanted a break from school, so I took a job as an auto body repairman apprentice at a Ford dealership. That didn’t prove too interesting so eventually I moved on to work at a lumber mill. After some time, I finally figured out what I really wanted to do and that was to see the world, so I joined the Army. Late 1973 and most of 1974 were spent in training. Ft. Ord in Monterey California, Ft. Sill in Lawton Oklahoma, and Ft. Gordon Augusta Georgia.

After getting assigned to the White House, I just traveled, letting the world teach me lessons I would have never gotten via a schoolbook. That went on through 1976. Then I had the thought that I could get some college out of the way via a combination of military and Northern Virginia Community College correspondence courses.

I still remember one in particular from that time and it explained the bathtub theory of economics. Kenneth Boulding in his book The Economics of Peace explained a number of different economic phenomena simply as the incoming flow of water into a bathtub and the outgoing flow of water via leakage or the drain from the bathtub. Professor Boulding discussed the national income of any given country or economy in line with the water level in a bathtub. The water level rises with an inflow of production and creativity and the water leaks with consumption. Changes in national income can also be explained by the growth of exports, which leads to an inflow of money and growth in imports which leads to an outflow of money.

What I also remember was not having anyone I could talk to about different theories. I just took the data as important and committed it to memory for the upcoming test. Something I perfected in the coming years so that I could complete classes and argue the merits later.

Sometimes the military and civilian classes would overlap, math, history, and electronics to name a few.

What was cool was when my travels and history classes would overlap as it did during trips I made to Greece and Africa. I continued correspondence courses through the early 80s.

In the mid-80s I caught the medicine/medic bug and took night school classes at St Petersburg Junior College. Those classes included anatomy and physiology, biology, and psychology. I loved the labs and in 1985 wrote a paper on using blood as a digital storage media. The professor was intrigued, other students grossed out, ha!

Then I got offered a job for which I had zero qualifications that included seven paid computer systems courses. My first computer course was an intro course given near Penn Station in New York City. Others in Boston and Washington DC.

Then in 1988, when I was working for a defense systems integrator, I was told that I would not get any more raises or promotions until I completed my bachelors degree. I immediately went into search mode and after a few weeks found the answer right where I was working, on MacDill Air Force Base.

St Leo College (now a university) held five semesters a year and between my correspondence courses and military training I was one semester short of an AA. So, I sold my skydiving gear to pay for the first two semesters until my employer’s benefits and GI bill kicked in. To get my employer benefit I had to switch to computers, which I didn’t mind. I took off getting one C grade in philosophy and ended up graduating with a BA in Management Information Systems Cum Laude (stupid C grade).

So, the story in this story is it’s never too late. I really thought I was going to be a nurse then physician’s assistant but life has a way of putting other things in your path.

I’m pro college but if that’s not for you, trade schools are an excellent choice. 

I choose to continue to push myself and learn along the way. Since 2019 it’s been the art of writing, social media, and fly fishing. Later this year, I’ll be hitting up my Rosetta Stone to learn Italian so I’m not a complete nob if we get there this year.

Are you a lifelong learner? What are your favorite subjects?

Best Steve

Steve's 2 Cents - Gratitude And Joy

Ever take a moment to look around at what you have? It’s certainly not a daily or weekly practice for me, but when I do it changes me mentally and physically.

I start with the basics: air, water, food, and shelter. It’s 16 degrees outside with a couple inches of new snow as I write this and I can tell you I am grateful that my physical needs are met.

I don’t spend much time, at this point in my life, on the next level of Maslow’s hierarchy, safety needs. I spent 50 years planning and acting in accordance with my plans to insure my personal security, employment, resources, health, and property were taken care of. But when I do stop and reflect, I am grateful that I had some great mentors and friends who helped me along the way.

When I look at love and belonging I have to laugh at what a strange long trail it’s been. My initial relationship suffered from my unresolved issues. Luckily with help, I was able to right the ship once I learned to love myself. Much harder than I thought, I am very grateful I learned that lesson. I take joy in my family and friendships. And, I feel connected, a part of my new tribe – authors.

Esteem, especially self-esteem, was something I always struggled with. I was never good enough, so I faked it and used status and recognition to cover the cracks in my soul. Today I’m not that Steve. I’m just happy with myself Steve and the freedom of that gives me joy.

The final level of Maslow’s hierarchy is self-actualization – the desire to become the most that one can be. When you can see that all your other needs are taken care of, this is one amazing place to operate from.

Being retired, my goals are simple. Ensure our daughter-in-law and grandson are taken care of. And beyond that, enjoy life and become the best writer I can in the time I have left on the planet. I am grateful for the opportunity and the learning that comes from being a writer connected to so many wonderful authors.

Just my 2 cents, but taking time to reflect on all you have can bring an attitude of gratitude and joy to the most gray and ugly day.

About Steve: Being A Special Forces Radioman At The Dawn Of Digital

In 1974 the US Army taught me all about its various types of radios and how to troubleshoot and fix them at the component, i.e., transistor level. When I got the White House Communications Agency I learned I had to operate those radios and the encryption units too. Luckily with few exceptions, the mode of transmission was voice. 

The radios were Motorola FM band walkie-talkies for the Secret Service and staff when preparing for and during a presidential or veep visit. And we always long-haul Air Force or Navy HF band communication systems as backup in case the phone system became unavailable.

In 1979 when I joined the Special Forces, my first assignment was to the group signal company where the long haul communications systems included one thousand watt HF radios, encryptors, and teletypes. All mounted into the back of a 5-ton truck.

After switching to an Operational Detachment Alpha (ODA) I was focused on my new passion, medicine. I was taking nursing night courses at the local community college and excited about attending the special forces medical course.

But like being typecast as an actor the company commander found out about my past and I instantly became a radio operator. NOTE: The two hardest training courses in the special forces at the time were medical and radio operator.

I had not attended the special forces course but that did not matter to a commander overrun by weapons and demolitions NCO’s.

It was also at this time that I realized that gravity and a 90lbs rucksack, not including weapon and load bearing equipment (LBE) sucked!

I remember being on a DEA sponsored and paid for counter-drug mission with a 105lbs rucksack and tripping. I fell face first into the trail, turning my head at the last second. My team kept patrolling, quietly snickering as they walked by then took a security halt while I rolled over on my side. I got my feet under me and stood dirty but not bleeding, shaking my head at my sloppy footwork.

Anyway, back to the radios. When transmitting, as we did in Morse code, it can take a while to tap out a message. The good news was the CIA had created some mechanical devices to speed up message sending for spies, aka, bursting messages. Great more stuff to carry. The devices, which can now be seen in the NSA cryptologic museum, included a device for encoding the message on tape, the tape units, and a device which when wound up would play the taped message out faster than the ear could pick up.

So, we would connect the burst device to an encryption device (that we’d already loaded with the appropriate encryption key) that was connected to the radio that was connected to a long wire antenna that we’d setup to match a certain frequency at a certain time of day in a certain part of the world. Easy day!

In 1981 the US Army took baby steps into the digital world with the production of the Digital Message Device Group that permitted an operator to enter a message and store it then send it whenever time and mission permitted it. It was a 9lbs device with keyboard and backlit dot matrix screen.

We still had to carry the radio, encryptor, extra batteries, and antenna kit but we didn’t need the mechanical devices and those less sensitive items to carry and account for.

In 1998 the next step up was to the heavens, literally. The AN/PSC-3 satellite communications radio which could operate in satellite or Line of Sight modes. I took the DMDG communications speed from 27 baud on HF to 1200 baud per second on satellite.

From there the radios got smaller and the encryption was brought on board, reducing the need for a separate unit and cable that could break.

In the mid-90s we had palm sized digital message devices and encryptors like:

But we started carrying computers so now a special forces communications NCO still carries 75-100lbs in a ruck but it’s all “High Speed Low Drag -- Lite Weight Gear” 


For more information on this subject see:

About Rattrig.com

The Digital Message Device Group - Soldier Systems Daily

Crypto Museum

KL-43 - Wikipedia

Steve's 2 Cents - Evaluate Your Priorities

January 9th is forever seared in my heart and memories as a day of indescribable loss. Our oldest son lay at the coroner’s office, dead at fifty-one. 2023 was going to be a year of fun times. Theme dinners and barbecues at Danny’s house. And we’d talked about trips to the cabin for fishing and to help our six-year-old grandson uncover Red Belly the pirate’s treasure.

We’d talked about riding our vintage dirt bikes more, and maybe even some racing. And of course, hunting and teaching our grandson rifle safety using his great grandfather’s single shot 22. We even talked about what a big kid I can be when I get to a theme park and see the rollercoasters crazy rides. Maybe we’d join them at Hershey Park this year.

Barely a week into the new year and life has forever changed. The funniest, most loving and helpful among us is gone. Speaking for myself, I’ve only kept two goals I had for 2023 and now the top three ensure his family’s mental and financial wellbeing.

I’ve suffered loss before, it’s not new by any means. And each time I experience loss I take the time to evaluate my priorities, what’s important in life.

My suggestion is to not wait until tragedy strikes. Evaluate your priorities and confirm or reset your goals often. Love your family with everything you’ve got. And don’t leave your love for them unsaid. Tell them how much they mean to you, for one day you or one of them may be gone.

My 2023 will differ greatly from what I planned, but it will still be a great year filled with as much fun, love, and remembrance as I can stuff into each day.